more from
Fluff and Gravy Records

Brutal Lives

by Nick Jaina

supported by
/
  • Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

     $8 USD  or more

     

1.
2.
02:33
3.
4.
5.
02:40
6.
03:21
7.
8.
9.
01:26
10.
11.
12.
13.
14.

about

Brutal Lives (Fluff and Gravy Records, Sept 2016) is easily Nick Jaina’s most daring album to date. And that is saying a lot when you consider that Nick has made a career out of re-inventing himself. The 15-track album primarily features work that he originally composed for a contemporary dance piece in the summer of 2014. These pieces were all rejected by the choreographer, often with no other explanation other than "too sad." Nick thought the recordings had some valuable in them, so he refashioned them into songs. Initially, he would use pieces of the songs as background music during his book tour of 2015, the band repeating certain sections, as he read excerpts from his memoir, “Get It While You Can”, over the top. Later he would vocals and choruses to give them a different life, and ambient noises resembling injured pigeons with drone propellers.

In addition to these pieces, Nick also included compositions written during a process called The 20 Song Game, where he would arrange a day with friends to try to compose and record 20 new songs in one twelve hour period. Stylistically, the album jumps from the indie-pop standout “Make A Life”, to the haunting “Co-Creators”, to the jarring “Saw You On The Train Last Night”. And I swear, “Fell Too Much In Love” would be right at home in a John Hughes film. Though the collection is unusual and misfit in its sound and origins, it somehow seems to fit together seamlessly. Due to the unusual provenance of the recordings, almost every instrument was played and recorded by Nick himself. He gave the collection of songs the title that he proposed for the original dance piece, which was also rejected: Vies Brutales, or Brutal Lives.

credits

released September 16, 2016

produced by Nick Jaina
mixed by Juniana Lanning and Nick Jaina
additional mixing by Lee Howard
mastered by Lee Howard

cello by Zach Banks
violin by Lauren Jacobson
additional percussion by Matt Berger
chamber arrangements by Richie Greene

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

Nick Jaina Portland

contact / help

Contact Nick Jaina

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Track Name: Not A Machine
Not A Machine

It’s just been everything
it’s just been everything
rocking horse cancer dream
I told them I’m not a machine
the filaments burning
I told them I’m not a machine

it’s just been everything
slapping their backs and laughing
stiffer than actors acting
I told them it’s not a goal
just to have power of the money machine
I told them I’m not a machine
I told them I’m not a machine
Track Name: Make A Life
Make A Life From The Cinders of Your Past

I know you are sad
and you still miss him
you are like a kingdom without any subjects
well here’s what you do you know
you make a life from the cinders of your past
keep the marbles that you found in the yard
and hold on tight
those are reminders now for you you know
you make a turn when the turns are coming fast
you drive a Cutlass Sierra north on the I-15
call up every one that you know

I know you are sad
and you are lost
and you feel
all the good times are behind you
there are more good times ahead
than behind you
you have to believe me when I tell you
you make a life from the cinders of your past
write down everything that you love
and the reasons why
and that can be faith
that can be faith, at least for now
Track Name: Starling Cross
Starling Cross

I don’t want to write poetry
because poetry couldn’t make you change
your mind
your heart or the arc of your toss

I’ve been in magic and tragedy
it’s all here in this melody
trembling
resembling the arms of a Southern Cross
can’t you see that now?

welcome to fixing the failure
if you like the face
then you’ll have to accept the
chance of it coming up tails

I’m not the cigarette smoking
monster
you’re always fighting
and I’m not the dissonant ping
of the dish of the Comstar
I’m not the brutal disciple
who leaves you feeling futile and frightful
and I’m not the tail of the beast as it goes by

but I know all the ways that you lie
Track Name: A Life Turned Around
A Life Turned Around

I guess the truth comes around
I guess the coyote travels the same ground
No one can testify to what I feel inside
it’s a red-tailed hawk
pinned to the sky
in a life turned around

I guess the parachute doesn’t work
I guess the singer likes to dance she likes to twerk
I guess the filaments are burning out their wires
and the window panes are slowly dripping slowly dripping
it’s a life turned around

he folds his hands when he lies
we’re supposed to sit around watching you die
it’s a sentiment that I can’t puzzle
if you’re tied to the permanent hustle
you’ll be okay

now the music will bathe us tonight
someone will stick out with an arrogant light
I’ll figure it out
days later when I’m
listening to the rock and roll radio
Track Name: Co-Creators
Co-Creators

Cuz I don’t want to crawl in bed alone
with just your music on my headphones
it’s like swimming in the dead zone
there’s a typo on my head stone
I just want to be a song
but how long how long

I’m just outside the bell curve
you’ll probably run and tell her
you probably think I’m well-served
I’m just looking for some shelter
from the crushing of the King Kong
but how long how long

they’re sanding down the mystery
now look and see now look and see
his hands are raised this song’s in C
this song’s in C
She’s swimming in the reservoir
oh my God oh my God oh my God
it’s like wishing on the Death Star
oh my God oh my God
Track Name: Belle Isle
Belle Isle

oh this route has wilderness
poking out from big crevasses
oh we lie on grasses skipped
on their spring break field trip
oh the bridge is off a ways
our documented birthday days
we shared one for twenty years
don’t tell mom it’s going too far
all of the paths go too far
into the wrong woods
into the steel teeth

I know this place can be a mess
the felonies once were so picturesque
the parties we had would chew up weeks
with glitter pouring down our cheeks
the orchids always with their heads in hands
grieving one more battle of the bands
pianos borrowed from the virgin city
barons laughing oozing pity
construction wheezing in the must-see dusk
buskers with nothing left to busk
some wild flowers finally pushing west
scribbling notes on the palimpsest
a precious few still debate the wedding
while fashion shows rage on hotel bedding
why they ever left this city
they’ll never find their roots now
roots now
step into my office
close the door
Track Name: Telepathic Teleplay
Telepathic Teleplay

oh hell
at least we have a script to write
and we’re just kids
fighting over Kryptonite
at first we’re clinking glasses
then we’re drinking up the ashes
of the pacifists and acid trips
the catalysts of flagships
who are thrown or tossed
dead or lost
that’s who we are singing for
traveling and flinging for
pushing back the tables for
wrapping up the cables for
leaving the gardens fallow and
believing our art is hallow, hallow
hello

oh hell
I guess that I should thank you
for fucking me up even more than those who outrank you
and a passionate case
for living a life in love
cannot erase the race
the race
of always thinking some vague man above
is taking notes, adjusting claims or counting votes
sending lightning bolts or digging fiery moats
just start with things that you know
your parents are just people
and there is nowhere to get to
lovers don’t forget you, hello hello

oh hell
I know I shoot myself in the foot every day
I guess at least I never put my foot in my mouth
because then I’d shoot my mouth off
there are so many reasons
that we could probably count off
one two, your voice, your laugh
three four, the whiskey and the bath
the moon is the same size as the sun, that’s five
the way you never really told me
how you do your tricks, that’s six
and how you believe, you’ll see me up in heaven
Track Name: I Have That Same Tattoo
I Have That Same Tattoo

My heart is the captain of
my blood that carries on
I have that same tattoo
I have that same tattoo

taking care of the wounded limbs
bringing salt and vitamins
I have that same tattoo
I have that same tattoo

red-tailed hawk
pinned to the sky
like a childhood kite
remember the cost
the toys that end up lost

no one knows what you carry in
your busted-up beaten up violin
I have that same tattoo
yours is black and mine is blue
I have that same tattoo
Track Name: Fell Too Much In Love
I Fell Too Much In Love

I mean I wanted to know you
I mean I’m here I can show you
I mean I tried to be patient
I mean the rain filled the basement
I mean I felt so much love
I mean it’s nothing I’m proud of
I mean I wanted to know you
I mean I fell too much in love

forget the clock
forget the cold
forget the window ledge
their little pilgrimage
I’ll walk your mom back to her car
and I’ll stand up and sing our song right here in this bar
oh my love
oh my darling
I’ve hungered for your touch
I fell in love too much
now the air has changed
now they’re looking over here
now they’re looking over here

I mean I’m here I can show you
I mean I tried to be patient
I mean the rain filled the basement
I mean I felt so much love
I mean it’s nothing I’m proud of
I mean I wanted to know you
I mean I fell too much in love
Track Name: Come To My Coast
Come To My Coast

Oh tell me
of your tirades
winding mountains
I watched your mind racing
over
and over
over and over

won’t you come to my coast
make an honest mistake
honesty is killing
every precious thing
we’ve over, we’ve over
we’ve over thought this all
we’ve over, we’ve over
we’ve over thought this all

it’s no one’s fault, that’s clear
but I’m already out here
say goodbye
to the tangles around your heart
to the mystery that tangles around your heart
to the mystery

won’t you come to my coast
make an honest mistake
honesty is killing
every precious thing
we’ve over, we’ve over
we’ve over thought this all
we’ve over, we’ve over
we’ve over thought this all
Track Name: Saw You On The Train Last Night
Saw You On The Train Last Night

Saw you on the train last night, behind closing doors
held my breath in the sharp razor-blade air
and that’s the story of us
that’s the story of us

saw you on the train last night, behind closing doors
everyone’s face in some fine device
and that’s the story of us
that’s the story of us

saw you on the train last night, behind closing doors
everyone’s face in some fine device
and that’s the story of us
that’s the story of us
Track Name: The Dinner Party
The Dinner Party

I know the dinner party is waiting for us
I want to dance a while right here
I know the dinner party is waiting for us
I want to dance a while with you

I want to know that this is temporary
I want to know that I can choose to be alone
I want to know the shape of our home
and then tear it down

I know the dinner party is waiting for us
I want to dance a while right here
I know the dinner party is waiting for us
I want to dance a while with you

I want to know that I am made of love
I want to know that I can make a scratch
I want to call you in the middle of the night
and then make you laugh
make you laugh
Track Name: The Prime Of Our Lives
The Prime of Our Lives

I’m proud to know you in the prime of our lives
the prime of our lives
and sit waiting her for all the others

hold the window in the prime of our lives
the prime of our lives
as we jump into another chapter

nothing can stop us
in the prime of our lives
the prime of our lives
we are motion trapped in bodies, bathed in light

sit beside me
in the prime of our lives
the prime of our lives
in a boat, on a lake in Central Park